I lost the game,I want to kill

题目

I lost the game,I want to kill
I have fought with him for 9 years,
I haven't won the game in the
formal contest except in casual time.
I really want to kill someone including
myself because I can't surmount this
barrier who hassaled me for so many years.
I can't swollow this bitter fruit,I
feel shame,embarrassed.

答案

If I were you,I will kill him first.